Oh! Ok! Here we go?

Well that was fast! Glad I posted my testimony yesterday. Looks like we're definitely in the valley already!
Today was a long day at my hospital in the city. CT scan, MRI, and then monthly appointment with my oncologist. As she came in, I told her I already knew that my scans were bad. I relayed the conversation God and I had - by now my doctor expects such conversations. When this battle is over, my entire cancer team will have testimonies to share! And she nodded in agreement, my brain MRI bit. In my words of 20 years ago, my MRI sucked. I went from having 13 brain mets (tumors) to ">50" ( to those that hated their 6th grade math teacher and didn't learn the alligator trick where the alligator opens his mouth on the bigger #, that means I have more than 50 tumors in my brain). Yep. It explains the visual issues I was having last night. While preparing dinner I lost my peripheral vision in my right eye, I could only see out of the left side of my right eye, and had an excruciating pain in my left eye, made making dinner a challenge BUT I still made a mean white chicken chili!

I was NOT expecting such a drastic change, even with knowing bad news were coming, this was more then I expected. To know that my brain mets quadrupled in number was a shock to the system. I won't lie, I'm scared. It's overwhelming. Even knowing something dreaded was coming, I feel this is more than a valley. FIFTY feels like a deep pit, a quicksand hole, not a valley with a path out. I'm thankful though that God prepared me for this, I don't deserve such mercy and I don't know why ME He is sharing information regarding future steps my path with me and not with other cancer fighters but I really want to believe that He tries to talk with every cancer patient but that not everyone is hearing or is able to hear right now or maybe is refusing to hear Him and instead wants to stay in denial of His existence under the cover of 'athiest' or 'agnostic' or some Eastern Hindu/Buddhism belief.

So the plan is to try Temodar, an oral chemo drug that has shown progress with melanoma tumors in the brain. The plan is to get the brain tumors stable for 8 weeks and then slide into a clinical trial of a PD-1 medicine and hopefully the PD-1 medicine really kick the crud out of my cancer.

Tonight I'm emotional drained so thankfully for you, my post is short. I appreciate prayers as we start down into this valley.